You know those people in your life who just get you? They can make you laugh, help you through the hard times and cheer you up like no one else. Those people who are so similar to you in the most important aspects but so different from you in the ways that keep things interesting? These are the people who turn into your closest friends, most trusted allies, and the people you remain close to your entire life.
Maybe some of you out there are already dating or married to this hypothetical person that I'm describing, but if not, take a minute to think about what it would be like if you and the person were for once, more than just friends. Would you fall madly in love and have the Cinderella fairy tale every 15 year old girl dreams about? Would it be a constant power struggle and eventual demise between two people who are already so much alike? Would the two of you find it way too awkward to try anything romantic and slowly lose touch over the years?
I sometimes wonder about these things. I wonder what would happen now that both of our lives are so entirely different from when we first became close.
Except the thing is, the thought of losing this person as a friend scares me into not even wanting to pursue anything that might even slightly damage our friendship. Maybe whats meant to be will be. Maybe time will tell. Maybe I should stop using all these corny, vague sayings and go study for finals.
Sometimes, life hits really hard. One day you're doing just fine, and then all of a sudden, something comes along to knock you all the way back down that black hole you just climbed out of. Becoming truly happy again is a long process. A process that is different for every person and experience.
Over the past year or so, I have faced obstacles along my path, just like everyone else. Family issues, relationship issues, school issues, personal issues...you name it. And as much as I constantly try to forget about the past and dive into my future with an open mind and heart, I can't shake the constant question of "What If".... no matter how much I try to push it out.
The most troubling part is how weak I feel when it comes to these setbacks, regrets and heartbreaks in my life. I feel guilty for complaining about such minor issues when I realize how blessed and fortunate I am. I feel naive for thinking that I am the one who controls my life and daily actions. I feel hopeless waiting for the person, event or opportunity that is supposedly going to make my life complete. However, I realize that every day has an opportunity for greatness, progress, and hope; let's see what tomorrow brings...